My Dear One,
I'm writing this to you even without knowing who you are or how you are going to be. But I need to write this for I know who I'm and how I need to be, rather, how I want to be.
I'm hurt. I'm broken. Shattered. But when you walk in, I resolve to be whole again and to give you all of myself. It might take some time, but I'll get there. You shall not be forced to suffer with some damaged goods because it's not your fault.
I feel betrayed. Deeply let down. But with you, I'll learn to take chances again. I'll trust you with all my strength. I'll learn to depend on you and be there for you always. There shall be no walls to keep you out because it's not your fault.
I feel angry. I feel vengeful. But with you, I'll find love again. I'll look for peace and compassion that you bring and shall cherish you. You shall never be a channel for misguided hatred because it's not your fault.
I want to be mean. Selfish. Even cold to emotions. But I want to share with you, warm up to you. I'll care for you, protect you, defend you and even fight for you. I'll never let you feel alone because it's not your fault.
I might not be what I used to be. I have changed. But I'll never ask you to change on my behalf. I shall never try to make you into someone you are not or secretly hope that you replace someone I had. I'll celebrate who you are. I want you to know that I want you and you alone. Nothing that happened matters because it's not your fault.
It might have been my fault which has left me where I'm. Or not. But I know this for sure, that it's not you and that it's not your fault.
