Failed experiment

I see a small section of people who stand-up for what they want. They do the jobs they like, marry the people they love, travel to destinations they dream even if they have to hitchhike. They do all that facing a lot of resistance and hardship, from society as well as family.

Some of them end up having just ordinary lives. No opulence, no fanfare.

Just ordinary.

This gives a lot of satisfaction and a sense of security to the society, which can label this small, adventurous population as a failed experiment.

But what the society can't fathom is the level of satisfaction and happiness this small population experiences even in their so-called ordinary life. They enjoy each day and each experience as life presents it. They find meaning in their existence rather than face compulsion of routine. They keep exploring, experimenting, enjoying the forbidden fruit.

They are not a failed experiment, they are the next iteration of evolution.

Memories

Memories... Keep the right ones.
Not all things end well. But if we can just remember the good parts, they can take us a long way.

Because it's not your fault

My Dear One,

I'm writing this to you even without knowing who you are or how you are going to be. But I need to write this for I know who I'm and how I need to be, rather, how I want to be.

I'm hurt. I'm broken. Shattered. But when you walk in, I resolve to be whole again and to give you all of myself. It might take some time, but I'll get there. You shall not be forced to suffer with some damaged goods because it's not your fault.

I feel betrayed. Deeply let down. But with you, I'll learn to take chances again. I'll trust you with all my strength. I'll learn to depend on you and be there for you always. There shall be no walls to keep you out because it's not your fault.

I feel angry. I feel vengeful. But with you, I'll find love again. I'll look for peace and compassion that you bring and shall cherish you. You shall never be a channel for misguided hatred because it's not your fault.

I want to be mean. Selfish. Even cold to emotions. But I want to share with you, warm up to you. I'll care for you, protect you, defend you and even fight for you. I'll never let you feel alone because it's not your fault.

I might not be what I used to be. I have changed. But I'll never ask you to change on my behalf. I shall never try to make you into someone you are not or secretly hope that you replace someone I had. I'll celebrate who you are. I want you to know that I want you and you alone. Nothing that happened matters because it's not your fault.

It might have been my fault which has left me where I'm. Or not. But I know this for sure, that it's not you and that it's not your fault.

Let go

Let Go...

I loved her so much that I wanted her to be near me forever
Forever close to me
So I clutched on to her tight
I was afraid to let her go
I held on tighter
Love can make you go crazy
It can make you blind
Tighter I held her, paler she became
That fragile creature was suffocating
Silently crying for release
She was trapped in a cage of love
She began to wither
I became worried
And I held tighter
Till she could take it no more
Love must not enslave
Love is not addiction
It is a beautiful libration
From fear, doubt and desire
She is a bird of flight
Nothing is supposed to tie her down
She is flower that needs to bloom
Spread its petals and greet the wind
She needs gentle touch
Not clenched fists
I need to let her go
Open palm and open heart
She has to be free
For she may not be with me
But she has to be her
The very best of her